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25 February 2008 @ 09:41 pm
Writer's Block: Sticks and Stones  
What's the meanest thing you've ever said to someone?
the meanest thing I ever said to someone was a to a guy, who was in 8th grade and I was in 10th and he had a huge crush on me. How he knows me my mother taught him and I would go to my moms class. So.. He liked me and I was deeply, deeply hurt and abused by what he did. When I found out that this boy liked me I was like okay and so I decided to talk to him. We talked for a while after about 2 months the other guy that hurt me called me and we started talking again. So I was stuck so I decided to let go of the 8th grade boy and continued talking to the other boy. I broke things off with the 8th grader and we got into an arguement and I remember saying " I used you, I only used you to forget about the other guy I never really liked you. Your in 8th grade I need someone more on my level and your not on my level, your so immature and childish" What a bitch I am, I felt so horrible afterwards because I know who it feels when some one says that they used you.. Its an awful feeling that no one should ever feel and I made this guy believe that I liked him when at the time my true feelings were for the other guy. After all that the other guy ended up doing worst than what he did to me and I feel so dumb and I hated myself for a while for being so stupid and blind that if he treated you like that before what makes you think he won't do it again. Anyways so after that drama I apologized to the guy from the bottom of my heart, I begged for his forgiveness because I can't deal with the fact that I said that to him and knowing that I hurt him, we remained close friends after that. But I still feel horrible.. I wish I could take it back...
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